It hurts
when someone calls you selfish because now you cannot easily adjust to them.
After all, now you cannot simply do as it is told to you and now have your way
of doing things. The reason? They say I am living alone. Firstly, what you see
as living alone is never a choice but an obligation. It was the punishment I
got to study or for someone to work out of their hometown, for your betterment
and growth. Otherwise, why would someone choose to stay in a building of
heartless people?
Staying
independently gives you the responsibility of every tiny bit around you, may it's
folding your clothes vertically and not horizontally due to the availability of
storage around your place, which may not even be yours. Yet, when you go home, it's
all different now. You are not doing things the same way you did when you were
younger… even bathing daily at 7 am feels different now because habits change!
I never
imagined myself 3 years ago doing some of the things I do now… I was very much
sure about my choices, but some habits like that of the utterly clean room do
change when you have to do everything alone!
Someone
told me once that when you say, “it's just a habit” you are near the time to
change it, or if I may say, break it! Some bad habits are good to break but
when it's time to leave those good habits, it sucks. But eventually, you get
used to it.
-aditi
A Poignant reminder that growth often means outgrowing even the habits that once grounded us...
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